Why do people think that food is love? My favorite professor teases me about my healthy food choices in class (e.g. snap peas). She brings food to class, sometimes healthy, but never anything I can eat. Yesterday she brought cinnamon sugar rugelah. I love rugelah (although I'm not sure I'm spelling it right). Our conversation went something like this:
'Try one'
'No thanks'
'Oh, you have to try one. They're so good!'
'No, I can't'
'Just take a bite. You can throw the rest away'
'No, really. Thanks though'
She finally gave up. Thank God. Of course, the class ate and enjoyed, and left the empty bag by my seat at the end. Not on purpose I'm sure. Nevertheless - thanks guys! I sat, feeling a bit left out. In fact, if I am honest with myself, I might say that it affected my disposition for the entire 2 hour class. But, and not to be mean, the person next to me, who raved the loudest about how yummy they were, is significantly overweight. A good 50+ pounds overweight. She served as a nice visual reminder of the results I got from eating whatever was put in front of me. So, although I felt left out, and will be thankful for the day that I can indulge moderately in those types of situations, I was reminded that I am working on something. Something that is, truthfully, out of the ordinary. And when you do out of the ordinary things, you stand out. But I'm ok with that.
Something that has become clearer to me throughout this journey is the fact that it's mine and noone else's. I will never be able to eat whatever I want whenever I want, like some people can. Oh well. I will never (nor do I have the desire to) be a stick figure. Just not in the genes. Oh well. But I am me. I have curves, and I'm strong. I am just now realizing that I am 'normal-sized'. I'm not fat anymore. I still have weight to lose, but I'm no longer fat, which is a nice feeling. When I get to a size 6, I will probably not look like my sister does at a 6. But I'll look like me, and that's all I can do, is be the best, most authentic version of me possible in every dimension of my life. That's what it's all about.
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8 comments:
Just reading this stirred the same emotions in me. I find myself getting angry when I'm put into a situation like this - I think this happens to a lot of us a lot of the time.
I'm like you, I'm able to pass it up, but then I just get mad about it. Like - why MUST they keep asking?
It's interesting how our society revolves around food. You're totally right on this. Good for you for seeing value and worth in yourself over a piece of food.
Youre right that you are you...and boy are we grateful for that. Youre a great you by the way and we wouldnt have it any other way curves and all. Kudos for passing of the tasty treat. Gotta love the just take a bite comment.
Next time just tell your professor no thanks, Im working on something - perhaps she'll get the picture ;)
There you go, Rebecca. Making the right decision isn't always easy, but you did it. Good job. To hell with the professor if she won't accept it.
Its kinda crazy how much people are concerned with what we eat. Its like enough already. Good job sticking to your guns, it defintely sounds like it was an intense pressure session.
I could agree more with you on the rest of your blog. Everyone is different, everyone is custom made, what one person looks like at one size..another wont. Thats what makes all unique. So we all should love what we look like, curves and all, and if we arent at love yet... thats why we are working on getting where we want to be.
Great blog Rebecca.
Be true to yourself. I wonder if anyone has a "prepared" response to the "just take one bite" that we might all use. Any ideas?
Consider your professor's words testing you for the holidays. What a way to hang tough!
You never stop amazing me! You have shown everyone that even when eating right and exercising is really tough, you pull through!
nice blog, you gotta be yourself! Advice I should have taken last weekend.
I was put in the same situations on my weight loss journey. Folks love to shove stuff in your face, thinking the more people who eat, the merrier. And that's great that you are happy with where you are. It will only make you happier when you get to where you want to be!
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